OragePika quoted The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller
But when I woke, sweaty and terror-stricken, the moon would be bright on the water outside and I could hear the lick of the waves against the shore. In the dim light I saw his easy breathing, the drowsy tangle of his limbs. In spite of myself, my pulse slowed. There was vividness to him, even at rest, that made death and spirits seem foolish. After a time, I found I could sleep again. Time after that, the dreams lessened, and dropped away.
— The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller (Page 40)
Reminds me of my first love.